Saturday, March 26, 2005 // if i could fall into the sky
Mood: drowsy; woozy; everything in between
Music: A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton
Reading: HP CoS; Tsubasa, Holic
Watching: Finding Neverland; my KH music vid.
Playing: KH Chain of Memories

wheeeew...
Okay, so at long last, it's Spring Break. I'm tired, slightly sick, and have just finished my first ever music video. w00t! =^w^=
The resolution sucks but I couldn't give a damn. I've been wanting to make this thing for almost two years! >XD I'm gonneh send it to some friends - if they think it's good enough I might be persuaded into getting an AMV.org account (lol.. i'm such a sheep). Not that it's that good at all, but it's something, ne? and I've seem FAR worse.
I was home sick Tuesday and Wednesday. Not one of my more pleasant experiences, methinks. Although I did get to curl up on the couch next to my kitty and watch dvds and read Harry Potter most of the morning. ^w^ Speaking of Harry Potter; my sore throat is making me sound like Rupert Grint.. AGAIN!
Also.. although I love Fai to death, I think I'll be making a new layout as part of my Senior Project of Doom. I guess I could hold off on using it until this one's so oozing with entries that scrolling becomes a chore (wait a minute.. scrolling's always a chore!)
All the attention my me deviantArt gallery is making me very happy and excited; I just love seeing people watch and favourite and comment this much! <3
I'm still waiting to hear from some of the colleges I applied to (okay.. one). But it's the best I have any slight chance of getting into, so I wish they would hurry up and tell me so I can know whether to feel sad or relieved. o.O
And.. that's about enough with the random comments.

Mushy out @ 08:28 a.m.

Friday, February 4, 2005 // bury my wounds in the dust
Mood: morose; light-headed
Music: White Houses - Vanessa Carlton
Reading: If You Are Prepared; Unfortunate Events
Playing: Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories

That's it. I can't survive without playing Warcraft. It is all I hear about, and I'm sick of trying to feign indifference as I endure another earful of conversation in which it is the only subject.
I'm a little depressed. Due to a combination of things really. Feeling cut off. People acting.. strangely. Which they have been for a while, but I'm tired of trying to put a positive spin on it. And by putting a positive spin on it, I mean "pretending it doesn't exist".
Anyhew, I resorted to web-browsing through fansites to cheer myself up, and quickly settled into reading fanfiction. -_-;; The stuff I swore I'd never touch again. But it isn't just any fanfiction, oh no. It's Harry Potter slashy stuff. With a (sort of) strange pairing. The kind I would write if I were into that sort of thing. Meaning both "if I were to ever create smut" and "if I were to write fanfiction".
When that got too weird (far to weird), I played KH:CoM. <3 At least KH never fails to make me happy. But I'm still a little depressed. In a kind of "why won't the world ever let me be happy" type way. Kind of. Much more to it. Mingled feelings of betrayal resurfacing, coupled with a very slight sting of envy I think. The source of which I am not going to name. Ever.
I wish I had chocolate. Or at the very least, a margarita. Don't get me wrong - I don't have enough experience with alcohol to be an alcoholic. Though I know some who would be inclined to disagree. They are misinformed people who take things too literally.

Rosencrantz and Guildernstern are Dead Hobbits

Mushy out @ 10:20 p.m.

Tuesday, February 1, 2005 // regardless of warnings
Mood: philosophical
Music: Hikari - Utada Hikaru
Reading: Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead
Restraining self from: Chain of Memories

I knoowww, homework doesn't count as the reading I put up on my little "current" lists (well, it doesn't in my book), but today I makea slight exception. Namely because I'm having a lot of fun reading this play. I'm a dork like that. >.>;;

"We cross our brindges when we come to them and burn them behind us, with nothing to show for our progress except a memory of the smell of smoke, an a presumption that our eyes once watered."

And now I give you... further insanity! http://thefifthdistrict.com/potter/
*pets imaginary Snape plushie* <3
I realize that Snapeh is not portrayed there in a very pet-able manner but.. I luffs teh Snape~! X3
I should be returning to my homework / notes / studies / headache somewhere around now, but.. that's not really my scene. At least today. Everyone around me is slacking a bit. I know I shouldn't be a sheep and do likewise - I should show them all up by working extra hard, but I really don't feel up to it. Course, I must take notice of the ball and chain at some point. But not right now. I don't like my life in panic. I happen to be a pretty laidback person. Except when I'm happy...
*cough*

kinoko mushroom9: mr. slacker doesn't respond o__O
kinoko mushroom9: is mr. slacker dead? *poke* X3
kinoko mushroom9: either that, or mr. slacker lives in an imaginary world with trolls and gnomes and pretty elves, in which case, I envy mr. slacker, and i'd rather he were dead because at least that would serve as a feasable excuse.

I want Warcraft *cries* TwT
Okay. Enough crap. I'm done. Time to read a happy book.

....FAI~! <3 <3 <3

Mushy out @ 05:28 p.m.

Monday, January 31, 2005 // no rest for the wicked
Mood: restless
Reading: Unfortunate Events, homework
Writing: homework, notes, more homework
Longing for: KH - Chain of Memories

I'm really finding it hard to live on in the massive onslaught that people nowadays refer to as "school".
I finally borrowed CoM, but I don't have any time to play it. I have far too much homework to make up from the classes I missed during my field trip friday. One might be inclined to ask "why?" Well, that's a very interesting question. With almost absolutely no plausible answer. It's just the way it works. I get to go learn about depressing stuff that happened, write an essay about how depressing it is, and then be depressed myself for the rest of the day because: a) I am quizzed on the stuff I missed in two classes; b) I have to makeup the homework for said classes; c) I had to catch up on 50 pages of the new book we're reading in AP English which the rest of the class had the pleasure of reading over the weekend; d) I have the priviledge of stitting and doing all this crap while the copy of CoM that I have insisted and pleaded upon borrowing sits neglected on top of my stack of CDs.
In addition to this: I am getting sick; I am sleep deprived (I know blogging really isn't doing me any favours..); I have a headache; I have no idea when the remainder of my math or Econ. homework is due. Also, I promised a friend I would be RPing today. So now I get to break promises too!
One good - or in some ways good - thing that has happened so far today is this: about a month ago, my sister found a cheap copy of Negima volume 1 and bought it for me to buy off of her at a later date. Two days later.. she decides she's keeping it. The manipulative little leech wouldn't have been allowed to buy it in the first place without coming to some sort of arrangement with me (we are both really picky when it comes to sharing.. so we divide stuff up between us. it's a stupid system, but it used to work just fine..) Anyway, a couple of weeks ago, I decided I'd had enough of it, so I decided to invent a little experiment. I photocopied the cover of Negima and folded it over the top of one of her other manga, and put it back on the shelf in the original place. The idea was to see whether or not she notices, thereby determining whether or not she's keeping the manga for one purpose entirely: to piss me off. Today.. she finally noticed. And we had a huge laugh about it. She still wont give in though. She's so damn stubborn!! -.-;;
Also I've noticed.. I may have come to this conclusion before, and even if I havn't I'm sure many people have before me.. anyways, I'm currently reading "Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead" in English class, and was able to draw a pretty good similarity between the characters and some.. certain other characters. (As I said, I've probably come to this conclusion before, most likely when I was reading Hamlet, although it's much more obvious to me in this play >.>;;) So yeah.. picture this if you will: Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Merry and Pippin, therefore, Hamlet is Frodo, and Horatio is Sam.... No?
Okay, I admit it, I need some real hobbies. (hee hee.. hobbies.. hobbits.. they sound uhh.. similar >.>;; *is shot* x__X;;) But seriously you know what I mean - the relationship status and the characters are similar and (to some extent) elements of the plot(?) *shuts up before someone maims her*

Anyways.. I gotta go to bed. I still didn't finish all my physics homework!! >.<;; I'm not slacking honestly - this is the first break I've had besides dinner since I got home. Solution: I'll do it in Pre-Calc. See, that worked out well, ne? ^x^
I needs a Fai plushie to glomp so I can sleep better!! TwT

Mushy out @ 09:47 p.m.

Sunday, January 30, 2005 // killing time
Mood: indifferent
Music: Truly Madly Deeply - Savage Garden
Reading: Unfortunate Events: Austere Academy
Drawing: Fai~! ^w^

Drove downtown today with my mum to go look at books for my senior project in Barnes and Noble.. among other things. We bought this book full of reeeally pretty full-colour high quality pictures of Japanese design (that's what my project's on by the way - Japanse Graphic Design). Also, I finally have confirmation from my mentor for my project - time to start getting it underway! I really don't want to though; I'm too much of a procrastinator. But I digress.
Whilst I was downtown I stopped by a certain store to see some friends of mine who work there. They seem to have so much fun there, and I know they are making plenty of money out of it. Too bad I can't work with them; I wish I had a Greencard. -.-;;
Anyways, I bought some new khakis yesterday, and they make me so happy! That isn't the highlight of my day or anything, but I looooove khakis~! (or.. this certain style of them anyway..) they are so comfy!!! I still have a problem with saving money though - I really needed new trousers, but.. now I'm broke. (I'm always broke, but still... now I'm really broke. Like, bordering on being in financial disorder broke. Which technically can't happen because I'm not 18 yet. But yeah.. I need a job. I want a job. But I can't have a job, so I'm just gonneh bitch about it until I can get one. And when I have one, I'll bitch about it too. Just you wait and see~!
I am not looking forward to make-up work from school tomorrow. I just finished typing my one-page response to my Japanese field trip; had to sum up interview notes from some of the guest speakers and put em into an essay-type thing. Which is usually no problem for me, since I'm somewhat good when it comes to creative writing. But I am le tired! =_=
Another little anecdote for you all: after reading Tsubasa I find myself absolutely smitten with Fai D. Flowright. I know that should be obvious judging from the layout, but that was just the fettish point. This is bordering on obsession. The more of him I see, the better he gets. I love him!!! <3
Actually, the point of my blogging today is to kill time so that my sister can't use the computer - she wants to upload fanfiction under the pretense of printing homework, but that's what all our other computers are for. That, and I want to be good at updating for at least a few days after remodelling. >.>;;

Mushy out @ 09:00 p.m.

Saturday, January 29, 2005 // dreams of sand and stone
Mood: refreshed
Music: Wherever You Will Go - The Calling
Reading: Tsuabasa 2, Series of Unfortunate Events
Playing: Final Fantasy IX

You know, I really think I need to brush up on my CSS. I gave HTML a long rest when I took a hiatus from my weblog, and now I'm really rusty on the more complicated stuff.
This morning I decided to forego my saturday morning cartoons in order to fix problems with my layout. Which proved to be pretty problematic, but I think it's okay now. Only problem is that if you have a small browser or (as I do) like to have your taskbar at the side, then yeah.. it's not bad. I dunno, I'll see how it goes.
Duty-wise, my time is split. I'm busy RPing/modding at Calenine and Arcadia, both of which are pretty low-brow forum based RPGs. There are some pretty nice people on there; very dedicated to keeping the forums up and running. Though I'd much rather be playing Warcraft. -.-;;
I need to draw, so that's one of my main priorities today. Gotta get my contest entry done for the 7th. Which I should be woking on now, but.. ^^;;
I think it's probably high time to update the world on a little bit of background history regarding me and what I did since I blogged last (before today I mean.. technically my first entry this layout was today >.>;;). So, summer '04 I went back to England for a few weeks to visit friends and relatives. Late summer I got my driver's permit and took lessons with Safestway. (I'm much better now than I was back then XD) Early November I submitted my college applications. o.O I *hope* to hear from them in the spring. Thanksgiving, I went to Japan, and had the most fun time EVER buying manga and merchandise and posters and clothes! December, I turned 17, had a reeeaaally fun party and went to see three movies within the space of 24 hours. Somewhere in between September and then I: took my SATs; almost died from homework overload; got a new kitten!!!! (her name is Kiera); attended several friends birthday parties; drew lots of pretty pictures; did community service for school (that's really not significant, but I was running out of interesting things to put)... and other stuff.

Right now I'm begining to get into FFIX, which has sat on my shelf for the longest time without my playing it. Zidane's so awesome, and Vivi is just sooooo adorable. I like doing the skipping minigame with him! ^w^
I have a neeeeeed for Warcraft, KH: Chain of Memories, and MORE TSUBASA!!!! *dies*

*pets the Fai... good Fai..* <3 <3 ---->

Mushy out @ 10:06 a.m.

Saturday, January 29, 2005 // holding onto secrets
Mood: w00t!
Music: White Houses - Vanessa Carlton
Reading: Series of Unfortunate Events, Tsubasa
Drawing: KH Valentine Contest Entry

Hokay! I fiiiiiinally updated my pooor poor dying webloggy! TwT
Sooo.. lot going on today. Had a Japanese field trip down to Sacramento to visit the WWII museum. I hate history, but it was.. somewhat interesting. And fun. And exhausting. -.-;;
Like the top of the entry says, been reading Tsubasa, and MAN is it addictive! So addictive I plastered Fai D. Flowright on my new layout. I loves teh Fai.. <3 <3 <3 I had to redraw part of his coat, with almost no ref, so yeah.. if it looks a little weird, not my fault. It was originally covered by Syaroan's leg and half of Mokona. >.>;; (And while we're on the subject of layout, yes, I realise the little pun at the top is utterly cringeworthy.. it came into my head while I was making the layout and so.. my sense of humour fails me again. Curses!)

Also.. I want Warcraft! Everybody has it now! It's not fair! And my friend won't let me go over to try it out. And I know it's the type of game I'd enjoy..
I was also supposed to borrow Chain of Memories FINALLY today. But I forgot to remind the person I needed to remember to remind to fork it over. >.>;;
Okeh.. I need to go to bed. Hope you all (who ever "you" are) enjoy my new layout~! ^-^

*glomps teh Fai* =^w^=

Mushy out @ 12:44 a.m.